Reflecting on what I've Learned

Well, it has been an eventful 10 days. The busyness of the holiday season completely consumed me. I attended & hosted parties & dinners, shopped, worked & just filled my time with so much activity it's hard to remember all I did! What I do remember, however, is that it was good. All of it was good! What a wonderful time of year it turned out to be. I was fearful of my gluttony...fearful of getting dressed...fearful of how I would feel & how I would look. Each day I wrestled with my flesh & there were days my flesh won. What I learned, however, was that I WAS able to get right back up. I WAS able to move on. I WAS able to learn from each mistake. I would be at a party/dinner & decide to eat & rather than beat myself up over it I decided to be thankful for the food & the fellowship & remind myself that it was a treat & a blessing at that & the next day would be a new one. I learned that I can enjoy the taste of the food without eating it until there was nothing left. I learned that it is only sinful to eat it if I OVER eat it. Usually I consume so much at one sitting for fear that I will not get the chance to eat it again. Sometimes I eat so much I make myself sick simply because I love the taste of the food. Sometimes I don't really LOVE the particular food I'm eating, but I love the thought of eating it so much that I consume it anyway. Over this holiday, I learned that I give the food the power, it has none on it's own, and the food is not the problem as much as my fear of never having it again is. For the first time I stopped beating myself up over the choices I made, and learned that my focus on food far surpasses my focus on God, and that if I focused more on Him, the desire for food would be second, not first!
As I embark upon this day, I seek to renew my mind, and enjoy each opportunity that befalls me. I pray you do the same!
God Bless!